Post by Rosemary McIntyre on Aug 4, 2020 0:36:05 GMT -5
Dearest Diary,
I had sworn off diaries after the last one was violated, but with things as they are I felt as if I ought to be keeping some sort of record. It has now been three days since the 'snake incident' and two since the doe head was left in Sebastian's room. Things seem...quiet.
Quiet, that is, save for when I'm alone.
Diary...I've started hearing things. Not random things, though...it's only Magnus's voice, taunting me. It was only once, the first day, and I nearly jumped out of my skin when I heard him whisper in my ear as if he were right behind me. I was alone, out in the garden, there was no one around save for a guard I could see in the distance. He told me "no one will ever believe you."
It certainly sounds like something he'd say, and especially if he knew that I wouldn't be able to prove it, but that seems...well, too obvious.
Yesterday was worse. I kept hearing him whenever I was alone, telling me I had no proof, that no one would believe me, that he was better than me... It was just a little at a time, whenever I started to relax. I didn't want to believe it was happening. It doesn't make any sense at all, since I was clearly alone in my own room. There was no way Magnus was in the room; I looked everywhere. I even looked out the window to make sure he wasn't there, somehow.
And now today...
It's the middle of the night. No one is awake. I had to relight my candle in the pitch black to write this. He's kept me up for hours, now, telling me that I belong to him, that I can't get away from him, that I should give up and give in. His voice is in my ear even now, telling me that I'm just a jealous whore, that all I want is attention, that I'd do anything to feel like I matter. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Putting a pillow over my head changes nothing--it's still like he's right there, in my ear, inside my mind.
Am I really going crazy? I know he has abilities, but this...this has nothing to do with knives, or blood. I don't understand how it could possibly be connected.
What if none of the things that have happened were really him? What if somehow I've deluded myself this entire time, and I'm the one behind it?
I had sworn off diaries after the last one was violated, but with things as they are I felt as if I ought to be keeping some sort of record. It has now been three days since the 'snake incident' and two since the doe head was left in Sebastian's room. Things seem...quiet.
Quiet, that is, save for when I'm alone.
Diary...I've started hearing things. Not random things, though...it's only Magnus's voice, taunting me. It was only once, the first day, and I nearly jumped out of my skin when I heard him whisper in my ear as if he were right behind me. I was alone, out in the garden, there was no one around save for a guard I could see in the distance. He told me "no one will ever believe you."
It certainly sounds like something he'd say, and especially if he knew that I wouldn't be able to prove it, but that seems...well, too obvious.
Yesterday was worse. I kept hearing him whenever I was alone, telling me I had no proof, that no one would believe me, that he was better than me... It was just a little at a time, whenever I started to relax. I didn't want to believe it was happening. It doesn't make any sense at all, since I was clearly alone in my own room. There was no way Magnus was in the room; I looked everywhere. I even looked out the window to make sure he wasn't there, somehow.
And now today...
It's the middle of the night. No one is awake. I had to relight my candle in the pitch black to write this. He's kept me up for hours, now, telling me that I belong to him, that I can't get away from him, that I should give up and give in. His voice is in my ear even now, telling me that I'm just a jealous whore, that all I want is attention, that I'd do anything to feel like I matter. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Putting a pillow over my head changes nothing--it's still like he's right there, in my ear, inside my mind.
Am I really going crazy? I know he has abilities, but this...this has nothing to do with knives, or blood. I don't understand how it could possibly be connected.
What if none of the things that have happened were really him? What if somehow I've deluded myself this entire time, and I'm the one behind it?
