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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Jan 14, 2021 2:41:56 GMT -5
The soldier was used to other talking far more than he did. It was a simple fact that he was much better at listening than he was at speaking. While it was true Leti didn't talk so much in his memories as he was right now, it had been a long time and Bastian enjoy the conversation despite how distracted he was.
There was still that strange feeling that even though Leti had kissed him back in the alley, he wouldn't want to pursue anything more than that. Maybe...he realized, that was the same way the other man had felt when he had tied him to that chair. Maybe that was the other thing he had never confessed was his reason. Honestly, it annoyed Bastian slightly. Not the memory, but the feelings of the moment. Why was - whatever it was he shared with the man - why was it so much more difficult?
"Good thing you have a lot of practice," he noted, quite serious. Sebastian was more than stubborn when it came to admitting his own need for help. Most soldiers were no different.
At Leti's question, the soldier's face became a clear puzzled look that said 'whatever for?' though a moment later he caught the look at his glass and understood. "That will not be necessary," he said, forcing the slightest smile. And then he leaned forward, reaching over he table to grab the collar of Leti's cloak and tug him into a kiss. The table. He was half positive that was what was in the way, not just physically but mentally. He was used to being close to the man, to touching him and being touched and while it was nice to talk, he couldn't get over his need for the other man ever since he'd thought he'd caught a glimpse of him over an hour ago.
"Maybe instead...you lock the door?" he asked quietly, moving to press his lips to Leti's neck.
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Post by Feleti Eidothea on Jan 16, 2021 1:41:37 GMT -5
At first Leti wasn't sure what bastian meant but he found out quick enough. Being pulled into the kiss was the sort of confirmation he hadn't realized he needed. A confirmation that the kiss in the alley hadn't just been a fluke. His own lips pressing back in a hungry way. The quiet suggestion in just the sort of voice Leti had missed all those year was one he would gladly take. As warm lips pressed to his neck something between a whimper and a moan escaped his throat. His desire to be held, to be near the man he had tried so hard to distance in his mind for five years came crashing down on him.
He slipped away to do exactly as requested with slightly fumbling hands, but his eyes were still locked on bastian. No sooner had the latch slipped into place was he advancing on where bastian stood. His movements filled with purpose, this time he was the one to grab Bastian's collar. He pressed their lips together as if seeking air but his hands were already busily working on the task of attempting to disrobe bastian. Though he had to admit that the more complicated clothes of a captain presented more of a challenge than the scant robe Leti used to pull off so eagerly. Part of his starving to know what had changed, what new scars or freckles might adorn the well memorized form. He intended to re-inspect every inch of the man.
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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Jan 16, 2021 2:00:37 GMT -5
He could have close the door himself. But while he didn't question whether Leti had meant what he had said or done in the alley, he had to be sure it was something the healer wanted too. And when Leti locked the door himself, it was almost like he was back in the cave again, five years older, but just as removed from the world and free to enjoy the man's company.
Of course, it wasn't so simple as that, even pretending the rest of the world didn't exist. But that was appealing too, in a way. As duty bound as he was, it was with visible relief that his shoulders relaxed and his expression softened, his own hands eager to pull Leti against his body and slip beneath the familiar cloak and simple attire.
Right here and now, it didn't matter what they were to other people. Just to each other.
[Fade Out]
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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Mar 13, 2021 0:50:13 GMT -5
[Fade In, after a steamy reunion]
Although barely midday, the short nap was sorely needed.
Bastian could not recall the last time he had been so mentally and physically exhausted. He could recall the last time he had slept so well, however, and it was five years ago in the mountains around Greyshollow. Leti close against his side. The sound of rain outside the cave. Herbal baths and sage leaves.
He woke slowly, not really wanting to leave the peace that came with having Leti pulled close and over him, hearing him breathe and feeling his heartbeat, having an arm wrapped gently and protectively around his shoulders.
It still felt like a dream. Like his he woke up completely Leti would be gone again and he would spend the next five years hating the choice he had made and knowing he wouldn't have made a different one and wishing he could have. Sebastian groaned softly, stretching slightly and trying not to move all at once. If he could watch him sleep a bit longer...perhaps everything would be okay.
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Post by Feleti Eidothea on Mar 14, 2021 2:11:17 GMT -5
For leti, even in sleep the warmth of bastian made it real. Or perhaps it was the strange bond he felt for having healed bastian with his hands. He certainly felt the man's presence differently from everyone else but as madly and desperately smitten as he was it was hard to tell if he was just imagining such things. Feleti was stirred awake by the light movements, his eyes fluttered reluctantly open. He too wasnt fond of confronting reality. For a long moment he lie there looking at nothing in particular and saying nothing. It felt almost criminal to break this comfortable silence. The healer knew intrinsically by now that he would need to be the one to do so. Add another sin to the pile.
" ....what do we do...?'' He mused only just above a whisper. Because he was fairly sure he wouldnt like the answer.
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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Mar 17, 2021 21:33:49 GMT -5
Hearing the man speak meant he was awake. And that made this a lot harder. It was one thing to extract himself from the bed, get dressed and leave. It was another to talk about it. Not that either wasn't a difficult decision. But Sebastian knew they couldn't stay here. And they certainly couldn't carry on with their relationship. In front of Cain was one thing. In front of his own father? In front of Cera and the Wardens, his guardsmen... He wasn't ashamed that he was so attached to the man, but there were consequences, physical ones, and they didn't just affect himself, but his family and Feleti too.
It was not a conversation he wanted to have.
"Sleep well?" he asked in reply. Because that felt...more normal. Well, as normal as anything else after having sex with the man. "Is 'what do we do' really the first thing you want to say to me?" After all that? Sebastian was asking seriously. Because he could think of a hell of a lot more things he could and should say, and he imagined Leti could too.
He shifted and swung his legs over the side of the bed with a sigh, knowing that it was a valid question. He looked up at the window. It was afternoon maybe? Still some sunlight left. He needed to get back before evening training or...well, he supposed he didn't need to but he wanted to. "We go back to the castle. Separately. We..." he didn't know, honestly. Go about their lives? See each other in the hall and act like strangers? Only talk in the medical ward? Only come out somewhere like this once a month to actually talk or fuck or do anything? He couldn't ask Leti to do that. But he couldn't tell him to go away nor could he bare to never talk to him again. This wasn't some casual pleasure encounter.
What if anyone found out? And even if they didn't, how was he to explain anything to Baird, or Rosemary, or Cera? His father would kick him out, considering he couldn't disown what he had never claimed in the first place.
And what about himself?
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Post by Feleti Eidothea on Mar 30, 2021 22:41:54 GMT -5
Leti felt a tinge of guilt for having broken the dream like state of their reunion. Perhaps there were better things to have said or asked. But the question was there now lingering on both their minds. He wasn't sure if bastian's question about how well he had slept though the answer was it was the best sleep he had in a while. He knew that the cot of a bed in his medics quarters would be very lonely and cold tonight. He watched quietly as the man disentangled himself and sat on the edge of the bed. His grey eyes tracing the scars of bastian's back as he spoke. He knew where the half spoken sentence lead.
He had never thought that bastian might be someone of such a high stature here. The stakes for his lover had grown ten times that of when they had known each other before. Leti certainly wasn't keen to have anymore bodies to his name. He reached out to place a hand on the man's shoulder as he himself sat up on the bed. "We will do as we must....I am .....thankful, for even this much." He had after all half suspected to be slain in the street where he stood. "I will stay as aloof as need be around the castle." He could agree to that easily enough. It felt a bit like the bare minimum if their secret was to survive.
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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Mar 30, 2021 23:15:17 GMT -5
It was the best sleep Sebastian had had in a while. He'd been far too busy recently and hardly sleeping. He'd needed Leti. For his comfort, for being able to be a little bit more himself, for the more than fulfilling sex. AS confused and frustrated as he was in the aftermath with how to handle their new situation, he didn't regret a moment of it.
The stakes were two fold. He was well enough known at the castle and in the city as a guard captain and protector of the crown and the Princess that he had to be careful with his association. He was certain that someone had noticed his...complicated friendship with Rosemary and read further into it (they had slept together and that was more than enough to be damning for her). To find out his was more than sleeping with a man...even if the King were not his father, he doubted Allarick would be so accepting. As a Warden, and the Inquisitor no less, to be associating with a mystic would see him to a swift end. Which...honestly might be preferable.
Bastian looked over at Leti as the man touched his shoulder, reaching up to touch his hand. It wasn't a good answer by any means. But it was all he could come up with. He was grateful too, he supposed but he wasn't certain it would be enough. Even if Leti was okay with it for now.
He nodded. "I...don't think I will have a problem with 'aloof,'" he noted. That probably should have been a joke. He stood after a moment, stretched, and searched for his clothes.
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Post by Feleti Eidothea on Mar 30, 2021 23:28:03 GMT -5
Leti could sense that bastian too wished for them to have more. In a way that made it easier to come to terms with exactly how careful things would need to be from now on. The healer also knew that as hard as it had been for bastian to even voice what they needed to do, it would be harder to maintain it. He would be lying if he said that Bastian being here hadn't been the deciding factor in his decision to travel to the capital. But it was also true that he felt some fateful pull to be here. Perhaps it was best if he sorted that out for the both of them. A half smile drifted across his face at his lover managing a joke. "I expect not." He replied playfully back before moving to also gather his belongings. He figured it best if he held back a bit and left after the captain. People would be expecting sebastian, but Leti largely could meander back to the castle whenever he pleased. It was his day off after all. There was a quietness to the room but it was a little less awkward for Leti now that he had a bit of direction.
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Post by Sebastian Arcturis on Mar 31, 2021 0:03:25 GMT -5
Bastian would not call himself flexible or easily capable of change. But he would call himself distant and it made it easier to pretend things didn't bother him and harder for him to deal with things when they slipped through the cracks. Leti seemed to understand to some extent, but it was hard to tell.
While he imagined it would be easy at first, considering their recent rendezvous, Bastian wasn't sure how this would work. Sure, he had handled five years away, but that had been without the expectation of seeing the man again. Now, with his lover working at the castle...Bastian had a lot of resolve and focus in his job. But romance and feelings were very new terrain for him. Even just attempting to communicate some of those to Rosemary had been difficult.
He noticed Leti's smile at his words and while he didn't understand (it hadn't been a joke to him) he smiled back. Just for a moment. Once he was dressed, he ran his fingers through his hair and then pulled the white haired man into a tight hug, pressing his nose and lips to the man's hair for a soft moment. "I'll see you at the castle," he said firmly. Because even if they couldn't speak candidly, he certainly wanted to see him again.
The captain left after a moment, ensuring everything was paid for and buying out the room until the night to give Leti time to collect himself. Bastian didn't return directly to the castle, instead taking a slightly meandering route through the city, being seen a few places, but largely just enjoying the open air and the space and the new perspective. Even the frustration was a welcome feeling to the empty void he had been carrying around recently.
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Post by Feleti Eidothea on Mar 31, 2021 0:13:10 GMT -5
Let had need it, Seeing bastian smile and being wrapped tightly in his arms however briefly. He hadn't realized how badly he had needed it until they were happening. He hugged bastian back as if trying to engrave the feeling in his mind. "Yes, you will" Leti replied back just as firmly because he intended to look after the man's health whether they had been speaking or not. It was nice to hear the confirmation either way.
The room felt very empty in after bastian left. Leti sat around for a bit before even thinking of cleaning himself or getting dressed. The rest of his day was spent meandering about the city but he of course did not bump into his lover again. He returned to the castle shortly before nightfall and settled into his quarters.
[end thread]
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